I have actually about 4 blogs in my head swirling around anticipating the moment that i type life into them...but I have a huge problem.
Pregnancy sickness (I don't call it morning sickness, cuz it's really an all day thing for me).
Yep, that's right folks...yours truly is freakin pregnant!!
I know I am still in shock too.
ok...stop laughing now..... :)
Yes....we were done and yes we planned on paul getting the snip snip this year....but things happen. Well IT happened. and let's face it....if you're married, IT should always be happening. (I love referring to sex as IT, it seems so sneaky). Yes, we were using birth control, but it is our form of birth control...and it worked for about 7 years. But still one got by.......
Yea- I know you are all STILL laughing. I am too to be quite honest. At first I wasn't. I was terribly depressed. In fact, the first 3 days nothing came out of my mouth but cuss words- kinda like Keri Russell's character in "The Waitress" except she used nice words like " damn baby" and I used a few choicer words. My sister actually coined a term for me thru those first few days. All I had to do was text her "DSF!!!! and she knew what I was thinking. (you can figure out those cuss words can't you?) I even cried.
I cried for the loss of my freedom
I cried for the loss of the simple life that we have now with two kids in school
I cried for all the crappy diapers I would have to change
I cried for that extra bag I will have to carry around filled with baby stuff
I cried for my friends who can't have babies, and here I am having a "Woopsie"
I cried for ALL the baby stuff we gave away
I cried for the fact I can't birth a 2 year old.
and I cried for the financial freedom that could have come with me working while the kiddos were in school.
But I did rejoice in bigger boobs!...and so did Paul
So here I am, feeling okay enough to sit and type for now...but the nausousness comes in waves and by 6pm, I am in fetal position on the bed. lol it's funny and sad at the same time.
So....the word is out..... and Paul and I have to agree that our favorite line from most people (besides laughter) is...."Oh, Our surprise was the biggest blessing."
Let's just hope so people....let's just hope so........