So today I start a new job. I'm a little nervous. But my nervousness is not from the usual things that make one nervous.
I'm nervous because this is my first office job in 7 years. The last office job I had I hated. That's right, I used the word hated. Don't get me wrong, it was nice to have a paycheck, I was thankful to have a job to send Paul to seminary, and I made friends that I still keep in contact with today.
But the job itself.
It was nothing.
I got paid to do nothing, and I hate that. Some people don't mind the office job where they can sit leisurely, snack and read the latest in People's magazine. That's not me. I like to be busy. I like to do something and feel as though I have accomplished something. I used to get through the day by re-organizing my desk a few times, making the rounds to my team pleading with them to let me help them, then I would go back to re-organizing my desk. Oh...and every week I got one thing to do- it was my highlight. I got to make a report. yippee!
I got paid a lot of money to sit around....and I am extremely grateful for that money. but i was bored out of my mind.
So, today I am nervous. I don't want to be bored. I don't want to sit at a desk trying to figure out what Internet sight I can surf next. I want to work.